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I hope I take it well. Criticism is what keeps you going to improve. It keeps you level headed because you’re not striving for perfection. It is just not possible to be perfect. The work won’t stop. It’s the journey that makes the work most enjoyable. I always take it back to my competitive running days. My coach had always said negative criticism is the most important criticism because no matter how good your performance was, there’s always something wrong with it. Of course, as growing teenagers, you want to be careful on how that criticism is taken, so you don’t discourage yourself from the sport. So I’ve always taken that seriously. Ok, I paced myself well, but where could I have made moves within the race to make it difficult for my opponent to stay competitive? How was my form? How can I improve my mechanics so I’m not wasting energy each stride? It’s always the little things. ...

This depends on the type of advice you’re looking for. Is it like me where I WebMD almost every symptom I have that is abnormal before considering going to a doctor? Fun fact, I normally don’t end up going to the doctor either way. Can advice be as simple as reading something online? Google something and read a page that has relatively all the answers you’re searching for? I don’t know how frequent online forums are for people seeking advice on certain topics, but I’m sure it’s still a good route to go. Everyone is anonymous (for the most part), so I guess it makes it a little bit easy to open up and get an opinion. ...

I think if you’re a frequent reader of my posts, you can probably gather all the life changes that have gone on the past 10 years for me. Hey, let’s just reiterate a ton of it anyway and include the world in this oyster! I think a lot of the changes in life have been due to amount of time invested truly critiquing the flow of my life from age 14 to now. I’ve slowly stopped caring about a lot of things. I evaluate caring based on the amount of energy needed to spend on it and if it’s too much effort to care, then it’s not worth my time. It’s all part of the belief that the world is out to get me and doesn’t want me to have nice things in life. A lot of trying to make some positive things in my life, but never really flowing my way. That’s a tough grind to go through. The course of my growth hasn’t been great in my opinion. Whether it’s through my family, friend, education, or work, there was always something pull me back down when I was trying to fly high. It just made it not worth trying anything. Even now, trying something new is a hard task because I just don’t care enough to do it. To actually try something new, you have to WANT to try it. My standard answer is always “no” because I don’t care enough to try it and I already believe that I won’t like it. I don’t even give it a chance. I’ve been battered down to the point that it’s pointless to do anything. My outlook on my life is quite negative, but resolute. Either I’ll retire by 40 or be dead by 40. I should try to fulfill some great things in that timeframe, but I need to figure out what I want to fulfill. That is a task that’s proven to be very difficult. ...

If you know me well enough, the answer would be no. If you consider that I get the standard 6-8 hours every night, the answer is yes. The reason why it’s no is because it never ever truly feels like restful sleep. I’ve tried all possible methods I could think of. Melatonin or reading before bed never helped. Not even exercise could keep me asleep. Too much waking up at 2am every night or tossing and turning an hour before your alarm clock goes off to get ready for work. Talk about unfortunate timing. ...

The absolute worst. We all do it. Even the most motivated and hard working people procrastinate. Why do we do it? Do we just need a break? Do we hate what we’re currently doing? Do our eyes hurt from staring at code for hours trying to find that one semicolon that you forgot to put at the end? By nature, somehow ingrained into our brains, we want to put things off just a little bit longer. That book report? I’ll start at 9pm tonight and finish it up the next day 30 minutes before it’s due. Instead of wanting to get it over with quickly, we want to put it off until the last possible moment, placing your brain on crunch time, forcing it to think critically, but not carefully. Mistakes will happen in those moments. Creativeness is linear instead of expansive in order to make room to get the task done. ...